Can't get to sleep at night

I have been lying in bed with my husband, tossing and turning, while at the same time alternating with deep breathing exercises to try to get my self to sleep. Do you know that there are four times in life when you have to do things alone? Death of course, that always seems scary. Birth, I never thought of that before. There is at least one person to greet you when you get here but going down that long, dark canal there's no one holding your hand. Then I came to my situation...eventaully my brain will shut off the concious thoughts and I will be sent off blisfully to sleep. Tommorow morning, miraculously, my subconcious will take a back seat to conciousness, I'll will open my eyes all by myself. I might glance over to see my husband but the trip to both sides, will always be alone.